Praise be to JESUS, MARY AND THE MOST HIGH - Chemo is done! Nov 12 2026

Chemo is done. 

I cannot believe it..

It is over.

What was going to be 6 months, turned out to be 3.5 months of an intense battle hospital stays and all..and its finally done.

I've done 3/4 AC or "red devil"

And 4/4 dense dose taxol

My body and "big boy" (the tree at Central Park that I go touch and talk to) told me that the squatter and friends were evacuated by dense dose 3 taxol but to gone on ahead and do the 4th for maintenance.

So yesterday was my LAST DAY. I am going to pass peacefully in my mid 70s from either being over-sexed or some crap like a black bird dive bomb...cuz life is funny like that.

The baptist nurses are awesome and of course all props to the dream team of Manny, Latoya, Tanya and my new friend who is battling leukemia while treating patients with their own cancers. We are all walking a path. And I keep them in my thoughts. 

Theres a girl who was outside WIIN health when I went to do my biopsy and I recall she received her own cancer diagnosis ( i was macoing). I felt it for her and I think of her often. I hope she is navigating this journey with as much strength as possible.

Thankfully, God is in charge..I thank him every day for the ability to open my eyes every morning,  to keep this body strong enough to exercise - whether it be hot girl walks or my weight listing 2x per week while going to work.  To be able to successfully fundraise records of amount of money, while implementing activities and leading my team.

Thank you God

I also thank him for seeing in a new light the prayer that I said in march/April before I knew the shit show that lay ahead

Lord please evacuate all that does not serve me, that will harm me from my life forever. Please protect me and remove anyone and anything that can harm me. 

And the result of that is that, perhaps I also need to remove the old me from me as it was harmful. It was stressed, held too many responsibilities and let ppl walk over me. Well...dat done.

Thank you Lord for the quiet strength for all those who supported me through this journey

ANGELA!, Dwayne, Kara, Allan, Kwesi, michelle Michelle, Odko Ian, Skylar. The laughs, the quiet check ins...the positive prompts. We got this!! I got this because of the LORD!

So now I embark on this journey to limit my hot flashes, rewire my clitoros and to manage my sleep! The first and last would also come as I navigated menopause...the clitoros is the most important one!

But thank the lord,  the chemo is done.

Every single cell inside my body. EVERY SINGLE CELL IS HAPPY AND WELL.

LAST ONE MOTHER FACKERS!!

Its almost like Christmas Adam

But noooo lie i am still nervous.

The amount of prep to have this go off without a HITCH! whew!

Trying to take my pills, eat right, go to acupuncture,  EXERCISE

all leading up to November 12th when ill be done with this bitchass shit.

But I have to get through my appointment tomorrow morning and bloods.

Praying for a good red blood count.

And then Thursday is the MONSTER 7.5 hour session...we got thiiiisss

Im still scared tho.

remember the research study i signed up for?

Well i almost didn't. Lol

Signed up for it and immediately forgot about it, until a tiny Tunisian man showed up at my door around 11.30am today.

Well..said man is actually a qualified doctor...in Tunisia..but here is good ole USA? He is but a Masters student.

Anyways.. I digress.

So basically this study researches the physiological impacts of cancer treatment..150 people..separates in buckets..those who are currently undergoing treatment, those 5 years out, those more than 10 years out

Its a no brainer which bucket I fell into.

After all sorts of psychological and cognitive tests (including one for Dementia) and one hour and 30 minutes later, i am now the owner of 12 vials to lob my spit into, a very smart watch with an app and many many surveys to fill.

As per Uncle..."I hope there's some money in this" ..well not exactly.

$250 in Amazon gift cards..but hell, anyone can spend $250 real quick so it'll come in handy. My first question to Mr Tunis was "is this taxable?" Thank god the answer was no.

Anyways...so I passed the test, im hooked up this watch for 31 days and gotta spit in tubes. 

Exciting, riveting..all that jazz 

Show me the money lol

Every single cell inside my body, every single cell is happy and well.

Nov 1..we roll back the clocks and we still have one more

ONE MORE IS THE CRY!!

I still cant get used to this rollback clock nonsense..why make life hard? Steups

Anyways..this was the first weekend by myself after dd Taxol and you know what..

Outside the fatigue it was not bad at all!

Things that happened differently

I went in for the injection on Friday vs the damn box

I drank a shit load of tart cherry juice the night before AND took tylenol/advil combo right before going to bed

Before the shot at 2pm I took TWO claritin.

The result? The usual tear jerking bone pain? Nooot really présent...and that my friends..is a damned win.

Every single cell inside my body.

Every single cell is happy and well.

praise Jesus - ONE MORE

The tunnel of chemo fuckery...the end...its almost there 

I am convinced that we should give prisoners ONE round of AC chemo instead of the usual punishment. CRIME MUST DONE!

Anyways.. yesterday for my second to last..a small shit show.

I was scheduled to start at 12pm for what is known as a SEVEN HOUR INFUSION. So yes, I left the infusion centre at 7.15pm! CRAZY! Manny, Tanya stayed behind.

Who did NOT stay behind? My chemo nurse for the day ANDREAN who i DO NOT LIKE. I literally switched from Friday infusions to Thursdays to avoid her ass...so imagine my surprise seeing her pull up yesterday...

This woman has brought her Jamaican style public sector level of care to Baptist and its NAWT appreciated. I had to tell manny, yo Nov 12 is my LAST chemo..

I doh want sheeee!!

Anyways..shit show again with the cool cap.

Shit wasn't getting FREEZING!!! Took an HOUR for them to switch me out cuz all machines were taken. I mean the cap was cold but not FREEZING COLD! God knows WHAT is going to happen. But of course I called paxman immediately demanding a replacement AND a refund.

This is now the SECOND CAP FAILURE!! WTF!

Anyways. In good news. I DID NOT COME HOME WITH THE UDENYCA BOX! im going for a physical shot later today, hydration on Monday and hopefully a good week with minimal hair loss (cuz trust my edges have been SUFFERING lately) over the next two weeks. Imagine to come this far and have a cap failure!!! Im already Pissed!!! I just hope my very slow growth hair can weather the storm and im doing my suzy pad cold cap at home too to try to keep my follicles cool.

Dr Carcas, annoyed me about my theory about the taxol affecting my clit (peripheral neuropathy...Google it) but I put icepack on my pixie anyway.. no coffin clit, no perished pussy around here!

Anyways..

The end of ONE part of this journey is over. I thank GOD so much. 

The steering to keep my circle small, to let them know AYE..i dont have tbe bandwidth to manage your emotions..its either you be useful, silently supportive or nothing at all. I already dealing with so many appointments ,scsns, chemo, research...I eh need the "how you feeling" text every day..shit man.

And its a learning opportunity for me when I come across persons with chronic illness which can be deadly. Send a gift basket, send some cash..but the WYD ? HYD? ANNOYING AS FACK!

and i can actually confidently say that I think after chemo #3 of taxol, the squatter has left my body. Not dormant, not hiding,  not sleeping. She got the memo and realised that this is a HOSTILE AF environment and yeeted herself. Not to be seen ever again so my life span can be a healthy 79 to 82.

EVERY SINGLE CELL INSIDE MY BODY!!

 Apicture of the loaner cap + the keep me company over 7 hours riding party from Bim 😀 

2 MORE

Two more blasted chemos

Lord please cover me over these next two infusions and please let them be my last.

FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER

LET ME PASS HAPPILY IN OLD AGE with a fete as a funeral

TWO FREAKING MORE

TWO MORE TIMES TO FREEZE MYSELF (my hair, my toes, my fingers and now my CEWCHIE!!)

TWO MORE TIMES TO HAVE 3 DAYS OF FATIGUE AND BONE PAIN

TWO MORE TIMES AND I CAN KEEP IT MOVING WITH EVERY SINGLE CELL IN MY BODY BEING HAPPY AND WELL!

surgery date confirmed

Bye bye bitties

December 23rd it is!